Stop lying to yourself.

"Take me by the tongue and I'll know you, kiss me till you're drunk and I'll show you all the moves like jagger."

I don't know why things are so crazy for everyone out there right now. Everyone have their own problems regardless if it's friendship, love, family, financial, yourself and all. Everyone is trying so hard to find their way out of the own problems and troubles. Endless difficulties and problems to solve, that's life. How I hope life gives us a break. :/ *Kit Kat, have a break!* Dear life, please have some kit kat yo.

No one can love as though they have never been hurt before.

Note: This is for those whom was hurt by love and is forever traumatized by it. You're not alone. If you never experience a heart break, I strongly encourage you to not read this, or you might never want to be in a realtionship and you blame me for it. ShooShoo.

I didn't know since when I became so sensitive. I mean, I hate being sensitive but yeah, I JUST AM. Perhaps since the first guy I dated. Seriously? Loving him was the biggest regret in my entire life, I swear. Everything, I am on my guard. I just can't love as much as the first time. It's the fear of letting it go too far and falling way too deep, knowing that the harder I fall, the more the hurt. I just can't love anyone as much as I want to already. It took me three years to completely let it all pass by me. I really don't want to spend so much time on anyone who don't love me anymore. I don't want to hurt so much, I don't think too much. But now everytime I want to get over this, and love someone like I never did before, I still have the fear that holds me back. I just don't want to suffer from the pain. Don't want to feel the same hurt anymore. Every single thing that people say which makes me feel insecure, I take a step back, but it's just so hard to take a step forward again. Man, I hope this will end.

Ha, and to think that I let you in and scar me like he did, I was a fool. But now, I don't know what else I can do. Why are the people I love the most the ones that are hurting me?

Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside.

Note: no reason, just freaking skip the part thanks. (: I post this to let myself see, to remind myself. NOT FOR YOU.

Everyone thought I am forever happy. I am always smiling like nothing saddens me. And I want to let people think of me that way, I want everyone to think that I am that cheerful me. But I just want to let some of you know that I am not, that everyday when I wake up in the morning I feel hurt. I brush my teeth, put on that smile and walk out when inside, my world is collapsing. I know alot of us are like that, forcing laughters, faking smiles. But it's okay, I believe that after a hurricane come a rainbow. I believe that once all these are over, my world will be perfect once again! I look forward to the day when I can smile from my heart and look at the world like everything is perfect. (: See, I am like so optimistic. so proud of myself. How awesome can I be?

They say I am a bitch, but they should seriously know that it's them who turn me into who I am now.

note: This is for people who have been called a bitch. (I am totally not refering to myself, no one called me a bitch. If they did, I swear they will be tied naked to a tree upside down the next morning.) If no one called you a bitch, which I doubt so, please move on from this paragraph because.. it's kinda.. BITCHY. )

I think many people out there are feeling this way, so I am gonna talk about it. People call us bitches like they aren't one too. And they actually did not realize it's them who turned us to who we are now. So who's the real bitch?

I am a living example. :D Glad to share. But, I am not a bitch. I am just sharing. LMAO. (This part is totally extra. If you don't get it, it's okay.)

- When I was young, I don't speak much. They say I am anti-social and unfriendly, trying to act shy and all. So I talk like a parrot, they say I'm an attention seeker and called me a bitch. (Actually no, I speak so much since I was born. I naturally speak alot. I made up this part. :D)

- When I was young, my crush barely notice me or probably didn't even know I existed. So I do all sorts of things and acted like imma-crazy-and-fun-girl-yo to get his attention. I not only did not get him but being crazy suddenly becomes part of me. They say I'm an attention seeker and called me a bitch. (Actually no, I didn't really became like that because of him. It was partially because of him, but the other half was because it's in my blood, my dad's crazy too. *raise an eyebrowm* Oh and i got him. <3 *winks*)


- When I was young, I scored good grades but I never boast about it. But then everyone never knew how awesome I were and how smart I was, then they started calling me a stupid. Now, I scored full mark spelling and I show off so they'll say I'm smart. But no, they say I'm an attention seeker and called me a bitch. (Actually no, I made up this part. I never boast about my results, I'm not a show off k. Well.... EXCEPT FOR SOMETIMES. :P *show off* I'm a bitch! woohoo. Okay lame. )

-When I was young, I was an emo freak. I only have two pathetic friend and all we ever played was scissors paper stone. The rest of the kids say I was a loner and that I am the most boring earthling on earth. So I became some hyper asshole but they say I'm an attention seeker and called me a bitch. (Actually no, I made this part up too! My whole kindergarten class was my friends. And I was never emo. (: )

I am crazy, I talk alot, I show off, I am some hyper freak but that doesn't make me a bitch. If that does make people a bitch, the whole world are made of bitches. So yea, I am not a bitch, you are not a bitch, we are not bitches. :B For all those haters who calls people bitches, you're the bitch. If anyone ever call you a bitch, just say this to them: You're just jealous because you're a dull and boring person and you hope to be me. Because I am the things that you're not. But even if I'm really a bitch, you're just jealous that you're not an awesome bitch like me, BITCH. -totally owned-. (This sound bitchy!)

No one called me a bitch in my face before other than Gilyn Mah and Joey Shen, which they better don't mean it because they are the bitches that I love. But I am quite sure some weird people whom have nothing better to do call me a bitch behind my backside. The above paragraph is for you! :D Oh yeah, and stop saying it to my backside because I can easily fart on your face. Find a better place, try talking to my boobs.

Once again, this whole bitch thing IS NOT refering to myself. I am just helping my friend, and all those who have been called a bitch, say something. So don't go around calling people bitch, show some respect to the human race, we aint dogs. You can go be one if you like, my pleasure actually.
 

They live on, even when you're gone.

Note: This is for the people who just lost your love ones. If no one pass away, this is a total waste of time. So move on.

Firstly, sorry for what just happened. I know this is a little random, why suddenly post about someone dying? Well, it's because not only one, but quite a number of my friends love ones left them FOR A BETTER PLACE. (heaven) :/ I am sorry, I hope you feel better right now! I never lost any love ones yet, so i seriously don't know how it feels so all I can say is that they didn't exactly leave you, (:. They left you physically but they are still alive mentally. So long as you believe, so long as you love them, so long as in your heart the exist, they are always there. Sounds kind drama I know, but this is the best I can do to cheer you guys up! So cheer up, Ting En is there for you. <3 I'm awesome!