Your forever means nothing.

“ 我的声音在笑，泪在飘。”

Hello everybody! :>
This might be the last post of this month! Examinations are coming and I really want to study! (Eventhough I don't know if I will. :x)
Life hasn't been great. I want to rant! About everything.But it's too much to rant about! So I shall Summarize!
Dear parents, don't let your emotions at work affect me please. You get pissed off at work, that your work problem. Don't nag at me as though I am the ass that pissed you off. I don't know what's wrong with talking on the phone, texting and what so ever. Isn't that what phones are for? If not leave it on the table for decorations? I know mom is sick, but that doesn't give her a reason to be ridiculous. I am trying my best already, but it doesn't seems like you are. I keep going on and on about how awesome you guys are infront of my friends, but you guys may be an ass sometimes. I have my own problems in school to, I am feeling down too, do you have to make me feel sad too at home? PLEASE, LET ME OFF.
Dear x, you are the person that is the most impossible person to piss me off like that. How could you? I really feel like a spare tire now please. ._. I never doubted. I never thought too much. But hey, if it wasn't that she rejected you, we really wouldn't even happen. I thought you were special, not like any other guy. Why did you? Why didn't you ask me before you ask her? Whyyyyyyyy. I suddenly feel so unimportant, it's always her. I'm always behind her no matter what. For you, I'm behind her. For him, I'm also behind her. I really don't know what to say. I want to forgive, and let it go, but I can't. I thought you loved me from the start. You liked me, you didn't love me.

P/S. I love the way you smile at me, the way you look at me. But you don't mean it.
I am not emo, I am just.. okay nevermind! After a hurricane comes a rainbow. I am just waiting for sunlight to come back. :D Ciaos.